What do you think will be the biggest challenge you will face working for this company?
It was the human resource representative of the company I am working for now asking a generic question during my interview. I went on and answered using a canned response I’ve used in countless other interviews I’ve attended.
I could’ve answered that the most difficult part is to work in a company. But I know better. I needed the job and I could not jeopardize my chance by acting like a free spirited individual. I may impress him with the fearlessness of my rhetoric and my regard for individualism but it would mean I’m not getting the job. I went on and said, “Oh, how I love working in a team. I’ve always been a team player and a believer in the concept of synergy. Our team effort and accomplishments will be greater than the sum of our individual work.”
Rubbish! That’s the only way I could describe the things I said that time. For somebody who detests being with other people, it was clear to me that I was outright lying that time.
Indeed, everyone is doped to believe that this world celebrates the existence of the individual. We are made to believe that it thrives in the creativity of an individual to begin change, but look around and you’ll see that the opposite is true. This world cannot tolerate the true individual.
Either the concerns of this world are too shallow for the individual to comprehend. Or the concerns of the individual are too detached from reality that the world is unable to understand. Either way, the world and the individual are in constant opposition, like parallel lines – equal in all respect but are doomed never to meet.
Compromise is not part of the option, this I realized a long time ago. No team will allow individualism to take root without sacrificing the integrity of its structure inasmuch as no self respecting individual can allow himself to be influenced by the spirit of the crowd. A constant struggle ensues that often takes greater toll on the individual.
The individual can tolerate the world but not the other way around. The world will force the individual to fit into its mould resulting in robotic and neurotic minions silenced by success, poverty, money, crime, corporatism, pursuit for greater happiness.
So the individual shudders in silence camouflaging himself in the comfort of the diaphanous sound made by the crowd until eventually finding himself being eaten alive by its members. But the true individual persists and stubbornly resists the soothing humming of the machination of the world. He doesn’t sleep, doesn’t stop to think because if he does, the world will eat him alive.
This is also why he is constantly sad.