I have not been writing for several days now. And if I am not writing, I am definitely not thinking as only through writing am I able to think. Now, the possibility of my brain having irreversibly atrophied or, worse, dessicated after days of not being utilized scares me.
While on the train this morning, I wasn’t very sure, but I felt a feeling of utter disgust with myself when I had to re-read six times (!) a line of compound-complex sentence in an essay that is a part of an anthology that is part of my weekly reading list. Based on my experience in checking papers of my students and reading works of import (or plain trash), most compound-complex sentences are generally challenging to comprehend especially if the writer deliberately used them to intimidate the reader, display his erudition, or simply exercise his linguistic virtuosity. But reading it six time before finally understanding it something new.
My spiraling down into this pit of idiocy may be traced to all or any of the following: (a) I do not anymore have time to read because of my work that requires me to read a lot; (b) when I have free time, which I seldom have, I would rather spend it in the gym working out; (c) and whatever little time is left, I waste it in front of the television, taming my usually violent thoughts with National Geographic or History channel features.
Of the three, the most nefarious is the tube. Aside from those two channels mentioned in the paragraph above, I have been watching a good number of TV shows that swim in stale, viscous soup of inanity. If it is a consolation, watching TV makes me forget, even for a few minutes, my worries about the uncertain. However, one does not become well-educated by watching TV; whether one is watching BBC, Jack TV, or Etc is immaterial. In fact the opposite happens–one most certainly becomes a moron. And I am a bit suspicious that I am already falling into, if not already completely entrenched in, this dark pit of idiocy. TV made me so vulnerable and it has conditioned me to think that I can do nothing about it.
TV takes away the time I should have been spending with my books and writing. For this I am beginning to worry. That compound-complex sentence was a bad omen.