We stood a few meters away from the escalator that leads to the supermarket of Shopwise in Cubao; it was 11:30 in the morning. After a little over an hour, a guard in polo barong signaled us to head down to the grocery for our turn to buy our necessities for the next month or two.
I don’t know whether we’ll last that long; boredom may be a more sinister foe.
But in times like this, the available options one is given are to die (or cause other more vulnerable members of the population to die) and stay at home and hope that the next days, weeks, or months don’t become what the naysayers have been forecasting to be.
I am definitely choosing the latter in the meantime.
This feeling of helplessness, because it’s shared, has not reached a critical level, yet. But I sensed that gloom and fear in the people who aimlessly pushed their shopping carts filled with rolls of tissue paper, bags of rice, boxes of eggs, and canned meat enough to cause their kidneys to collapse if they don’t supplement their diets with vegetables and fresh fruits in the weeks to come.
I’ve never experienced anything close to this—it worries me to no end. Will I be able to pay the amortizations for the two mortgages I’m paying every month? Will I still have work to go back to when this is all over? Will I still regain all the muscles that have atrophied after not having gone to the gym for weeks now?
Man never seems to abandon his frivolity despite crises he goes through.
Sure, I am afraid. These days, everyone seems to be.