The universe does not stand upright. When one leaves the surface of our small planet, north, south, east, and west become immaterial. This lack of definition, the randomness, and the relativity of everything are most closely approached by the human mind.
At 26, John feels that he is right in the middle of several crossroads, each path pulling him toward it. But unlike before, when he was a bit younger than he is now, he’s already made many crucial decisions and where he is now is not anymore about making choices but standing by those choices he has made. And so the path goes ahead.
He will not be distracted.
He admits being in academe gives him more leeway, the time, the freedom of thought, and the experience to make him a ‘fulfilled’ twenty-something. But things often do not turn out as he hopes they would. Still he keeps treading.
He thinks he has made up most of his life’s plans. At 26 he is not anymore as lost (although it is a bit presumptuous) as when he was 24 years old. He has almost completed the search for the self, at peace with his identity, and hopefully thinks that he’s given up asking existentialist questions and has already begun asking more pragmatic questions.
He remains an idealist to the core, though. Yet, more tempered this time.
He still loves like tomorrow will not come, and only loves the one person in his life whom he knows (and prays to God that) he’ll grow old gracefully with.
Still, like any other twenty-somethings, he fears, worries, becomes impatient, distrusts himself, is insecure, feels hate, but being at this point in one’s life is a process. He hopes, trusts, believes, works, and loves more passionately than ever.
This blog is his humble contribution to the celebration of this random-ness, call it slipshod-ness, of a twenty-something’s mind.
The author is currently teaching at the Ateneo De Manila University in the Philippines.